It was a bitter cold February evening as I paced outside of Maha Rose waiting for my friend to arrive.
I had no idea what I was about to get myself into. Dana suggested I try Breathwork a few weeks prior if I wanted to up my spirituality game. I responded with a swift 'no'. Yet here I was, frantically pacing in front of a warm healing center in Greenpoint, Brooklyn.
We eventually emerged into the heavily saged center and I was officially stressed out. Group settings aren't my thing and the people attending looked professionally successful and ethereally beautiful. My friend and I grabbed a seat and I tried to accept whatever was about to come my way.
A beautiful glowing woman, Erin Telford, opened the circle with a calming voice and loving words. She had us all go around the circle and share one thing we want to release that evening. I immediately felt bonded to the group and at ease.
She showed us how the breath cycle worked and all thirty of us got situated. We were close, like bodies touching close. Erin started the music and audible emotional sounds began... I think to myself, what in the hell did I sign up for? Trying to keep an open mind - I began the breath. Bodily sensations started and I was shocked. The woman next to me began to cry and my initial reaction was to help her. Instead of responding to that reaction - I cried with her.
Without notice, I found my friends hand in mine. Flashes of our friendship flooded my mind. I recalled experiences of every instance where she was there to support me. Every difficult life moment. Every fun random adventure. I was overcome with joy. Before I knew it, I was audibly laughing. I felt a calming sense of release.
The breath journey lasted roughly thirty five minutes and was followed by a peaceful resting period. We sat as a group after and some shared their experiences. I sat with tear stained cheeks, leaning on my friend in profound gratitude for our friendship and in a deep stupor as to what had just cracked open in me. I felt lighter.
I have always sought to feel safe and protected from outside sources. I now had an understanding that I could access that feeling within myself through this practice. I instantly knew I needed to explore this more. I needed to share this with others.